Thursday, October 13, 2016

thinking in LA

another unfinished post.  seriously, this blog is scrap paper notes right now.

i'm in Cali again, this time with The Mutt aka Malcolm.

it's minutes to midnight and i could have gone to bed probably 1-2 hours ago.  i brought my laptop.  i've caught up on some work, not really knowing if it's work.  i wish i didn't suck so hard at being organized and prioritizing.  i'm working on it but as it truly is not my forte nor my natural way, it's quite the challenge added to my plate of a-little-bit-of-everything.

i've been shaking my head a lot lately over how i've been feeling in this new role.  time is laughing at me.  reminding me of how hard it was to be at home with moses and chloe, with all my time going to them and barely anytime to do much other than blog and maybe do a few craft shows.  fast forward to today and all i want to do is spend time with them doing arts and crafts and going on outings.  malcolm is missing out on that quality time.  i hate it.  he's also proving to be the most rambunctious of them all and i really need to shape up my discipline with him as he is definitely acting like we are all full of shit and he can walk all over us if he smiles.  the training starts young.


i never finished this post.  i'm going to post it anyway with a link to the photo gallery.
we went to Tofino, just kevin and i, to celebrate Lindsay and Neil's wedding.

Photo Gallery Here

it's beautiful here.  we didn't get around much today but our 20 minute stop at Incinerator Beach was what my body needed after 6-7 hours of travelling.  we had not anticipated the 45 extra minutes of sitting around in construction traffic.  i was making an effort to not be disappointed that we would have to hightail it out of here early sunday morning, but with this traffic in place we would have to leave even earlier to make our ferry back home.  we arrived at the airport to pick up Robin and Branch but the fog had delayed their flight.  we decided to drive into town but soon realized we would have to turn around as soon as we arrived, so we u-turned on Pacific Rim Hwy and made a quick pitstop at Incinerator Beach before returning to the airport.  It was almost 5pm and I just wanted to be done with the travelling and start the relaxation part of this short trip.  I could not have asked for a more stunning awakening.  The miles of sand.  The waves.  The waves.  The waves emerging from the early evening glowing fog.  The light.  The openness.  I felt overwhelmed by the openess.  Breathtaking is a legitimate description, I literally felt like I couldn't breath as I took in this new view.  Kevin ran ahead to climb the giant rock.  I followed.  I was in love.  Painfully in love.  I was jealous of the surfers.  I can see why people come out here, I can see why people live out here.  Just based on this one area, it was definitely worth the trip.  I'm hoping we have time tomorrow morning to go back and actually go into the water.

We eventually hurried back to the car as we had to pay to be there and didn't...  We arrived at the airport just in time to see Robin and Branch.  it would be our first time truly hanging out together.  we drove into town to pick up the keys to our weekend home.  love the town, love the shops, love our weekend home, love R&B for finding our place and being such easy people to get along with.  after recharging at home, we headed out to pick up a few groceries, drop off wedding stationery with Lindsay, and then have dinner at Kuma.  


Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Back to School 2016-2017


the countdown to Back to School has had me super bummed out.  so many parents are stoked to get their kids out of their hair so they can press on uninterrupted with fights and tantrums and endless food making.  I AM NOT STOKED.  i'll take the fights and tantrums.  i like having them around. sometimes i need to get work done and they need to haul their butts out of my space or as some days would have it, the house, but we were lucky this year.  having kevin at home probably was what made this summer so terrific.  we could take turns with them.  we could barter and trade morning for afternoon, or whole days if necessary.  it was the first time we got to be together as a family all summer.  it was balanced.  the key was balance and it was balanced!  

also, this summer wasn't the gruelling pace of last year.  my body is back and i feel good and i fit into my clothes again.  malcolm isn't a baby that i have to haul around and whip my giant tits out for anymore.  i had all 3 of them ALL DAY, ALL SUMMER as kevin's schedule was basically 16 hour days of going to work and then working on the house/yard.  this was the best summer i've had in my entire life, and it was completely without getting to travel or do anything costly or super exciting.  it was just NICE.  it was relaxing.  i was working but didn't have to kill myself and managed to pay bills.  i got to spend time with friends partying and swimming and having dinners, we as a family enjoyed so many gorgeous evening bike rides and had a fantastic time camping.  we went to Splashdown for the last time before it shuts down, and i got to watch Malcolm laugh and splash for the first time on waterslides.  i felt free.  i felt so damn free.  it felt like the first break in forever for ALL OF US and as the cold weather swooped in this last week in combination with parents excitedly anticipating school,  i wanted to throw myself on the floor and just freak-cry in true malcolm style.  my feet are so cold, my hands are cold and starting to ache, and my chest hurts every time i look at my pile of summer clothes to move into the closet.  

with a heavy heart, i am hopeful for more good things to come, even if it means pushing through a long cold and rainy 10 months.  thankfully, i will be heading to Tofino this weekend for Lindsay and Neil's wedding, followed by a quick trip to Cali with Malcolm (while he is still free to fly!), and then my trip to India at the end of October.  which will bring me to Christmas Sessions, Christmas, Chloe + Malcolm's birthday and into 2017.

moving forward.  peeks into this morning's first day of school...

chloe had been up with me for a while in my bed.  we eventually got up to wake the boys who were grumpy and tired...

moses hiding in the cozy warm blankets

this guy is in the throws of it lately.  crying endlessly over nothing.


always wearing one of his hand-me-down oversized lego shirts for jams

smart dad made overnight oatmeal

he lost two teeth in two days in early August.
he's got one more beside that centre gap starting to wiggle... 

I know what's going to happen...
I'm going to go back to school with NO TEETH
~ Moses, Age 7
After losing his first 2 teeth

gonna miss those baby teeth

Malcolm unapologetically smashing Chloe with the toy stroller


morning crew

so thankful for this Mama for inviting us super last minute for one last hurrah over at her place yesterday afternoon for snack, treats, drinks, and a swim in their very heated pool.  the kids and i had a blast!!!!!

i took too long saying goodbye to this one that by the time i ran over to Moses on the other side of the school he had already gone inside.

so happy i forced myself to take these photos...  i love remembering this stuff.

thank you summer for everything.

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Camping 2016: Home + Happy Anniversary

the usual snuggle-fighting ensued

i think everyone had a wayyyyyyy better night's sleep.  the mattresses were pumped full and it was nice and quiet in the foresty area away from the road.  i wish we could have had a photo of all of us but that would require too much set up. 


i love these people

i love that i brought coffee
it was much chillier this morning and it really hit the spot
thanks mc for the press and the grinds

more crack

i went back to the boat launch with the kids while kevin packed us up

so many fish

malcolm went in the water and was soaked.
thank god for big brothers and their sweaters.

the campsite was fantastic.  it did not have the facilities of the Princeton RV Park, just single no-flush johns with no light.  there is a tap and water fountain by the johns.  the two ladies that were riding around greeting guests and selling firewood were both super friendly.  not much for facilities but so beautiful.  the roads throughout are smooth and run up and down for kids to bikeride.  we will definitely have to bring bikes next time.  i've never been to Osoyoos or Kelowna, i think next year we will also venture that way.  i'm already so excited.

on our way home we said good riddance to the disgusting tree full of shoes

made me feel so sick like it had a terrible textural disease

farewell town of Princeton

it was a long long ride back.  we detoured through Harrison to visit Kilby, a little itsy bitsy town kevin had visited a long time ago.  it wasn't great.  the kids were getting hot, malcolm was at his wits' end and by the time we arrived (3 hours later), both the campsite and parking lot to swim in the lake were all full.  we cooled off with ice cream from the tiny visitors shop and restaurant before getting back into the van and into traffic.  it was so hot.  the van has no air conditioning and we were pushing 4-5 hours at this point.  poor malcolm was suffering as he had long passed his nap.  we finally arrived at my mom's who so kindly offered to take them overnight.  we took refuge in her cool shady backyard before heading out for dinner. 

it just happened to be our anniversary.  i had thought about heading into vancouver, but we both definitely had enough driving for the day.  we hopped over to The Gudrun which was 10 minutes away from my mom's and enjoyed a cool and quiet dinner together.  SO QUIET.  SO SO QUIET.

cheers to 9 years of marriage
this shit ain't easy no matter how i'm spinning it

we walked off dinner and dessert around steveston.  it was bustling with people, locals and tourists.  driving home, the sunset was calling my name, so we stopped to catch the last of it at Centennial.

still like this guy.  good guy.  very good guy.

and because there are no photos of me ever, here are 3 more

there have been some really hard weeks, months and years
i'm so glad this summer has been a really terrific one
so so so glad

stupid school ugh